Heart is numb
Absence of mind
Damaged soul
Longing to die

The way you care for her
The way you protect her
Never the same
When we are together

Thought I felt the worst when I found out
I never had an idea, it broke me apart
I am so lost, sorrow never seems to end
How can living be more painful than death.


Now sitting in this temporary home

With only myself, a pen and this note

So much to ask, so much to tell

These four corners watched as tears fell


How do I start my life over

When in the past decade to you I have shared

Now it’s empty without any purpose

Left with pain and agony, elusive thoughts.


Without enough sleep, my eyes weep

Calling the name of my mother, longing for her care


To help ease the pain

Bed flooded in tears

This heart cannot feel any anger

But sorrow and fear


Went to a place where we started

Only to bring back memories we have shared

Looking back, there is so much to cherish

But now your love, suddenly had vanished.


61 How Do You…?

…keep yourself motivated?

When things suddenly felt bland and boring.

…keep your blood pumping?

When you are too tired from work but your mind doesn’t want to stop thinking?

…keep yourself inspired?

When you need to think of new ideas yet nothing is on your mind.

…manage your precious time?

When you want to do things all at the same time.