Heart is numb
Absence of mind
Longing to die
The way you care for her
The way you protect her
Never the same
When we are together
Thought I felt the worst when I found out
I never had an idea, it broke me apart
I am so lost, sorrow never seems to end
How can living be more painful than death.
Now sitting in this temporary home
With only myself, a pen and this note
So much to ask, so much to tell
These four corners watched as tears fell
How do I start my life over
When in the past decade to you I have shared
Now it’s empty without any purpose
Left with pain and agony, elusive thoughts.
Without enough sleep, my eyes weep
Calling the name of my mother, longing for her care
To help ease the pain
Bed flooded in tears
This heart cannot feel any anger
But sorrow and fear
Went to a place where we started
Only to bring back memories we have shared
Looking back, there is so much to cherish
But now your love, suddenly had vanished.
My hands are yearning to sketch
My soul is longing to search
Aching to write, my restless mind thinks
To express its feelings, my heart never skips a beat.
Everything I want to do
To start, I know not how to
I will explode if it ain’t done
All the ideas now begone.
Finding who I am
I am who I’m not
Wake me up in this dream
Jack of all trades, master of none.